When colours become a burden

I usually moan about being colourblind and wearing makeup, trying to be a fashionista. A world where colours define you. Make you feel in or out… but is there anything kinda cool about it??

OK, let’s press rewind a minute (yeap, I am from the time where “rewind” was a thing). So, I spent loads of years thinking, believing, knowing that apart from being visually impaired (registered partially sighted), I was also red/ green colour blind. Kinda amazing coz, well, women are not rarely colour blind (that is a myth people! 1/200 gals are colour blind).

So, as a teacher and someone who is into research, I decided to volunteer and take part in research that had to do with glasses that supposedly corrected colour vision (if only it was that simple). Anyhoo, I did this specialised test and found out that I am not red/green colour blind. I am an incomplete achromat which means I have a bit of colour vision. I am closer though to those who see black, grey, and white. Now that is RARE. Still in the process of figuring out what is going on though.

How could I not know? Well, I always knew my colour vision sucked which is why I always asked people for help with colours, therefor no problemo!

The… Pros?

The main disadvantage of being colourblind is not being able to see colours. Don’t get me wrong, it sucks. A lot. As lot as a lot can be, but it is also liberating for me, as a woman (when I am in a free spirit mood).

Liberating????

Think about all the colours you do not wear coz you think they do not suit you. I do not have that problem. I have no idea what looks shit on me (unless someone tells me), so I am free. I just go for it.

I wear brights, neons, pinks, reds, yellows, the lots! And it is fine. I get compliments even. I stand out.

My manager said the other day

Nice colour Joanna. Very bright….

Huh?? Had I known my top was bright, would I have worn it? Probably not. I would have thought,

I cannot wear something bright to work

But I did… And I can… And it doesn’t matter!!!

My lippies are pinks. Pinks that most of my friends are scared to go near. I wear them and they say,

Oh! It looks nice! Get it.

The interesting thing is that they say,

You can pull off those colours

Can I? Or is it about living in the bliss of not knowing…

I buy clothes (which I do not know how to match), but I buy if I think it looks good against my skin. If the top looks good, I get it!

I am free till I am not. Until everything needs to match, my insecurities take over, and I just conform to the norm. A world where everything is colour coded.

Except when they are not and then you are free…. to colour… without worrying about colours…

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Chatting about makeup and being colourblind

Yesterday was colour blind awaress day and I tried to do that. Raise awareness. The main focus was on students who are colour blind, but I did post a video about my whole makeup application process and what I, as an achromat, find difficult.

Struggling

Foundation/concealer

I cannot pick a shade for my skin. Whatever I use is based on what a makeup artist or sales assistant has chosen for me. I am OK with that. They are helpful. I can see if the foundation/ concealer is full or medium coverage, but I cannot see if it goes orange, if it is a cool or warm undertone.

Eye shadows

I cannot see the colours. I mean, I can see them, but not really “see” them the way you do. That is why I have ranted over and over about cosmetics companies and how they name their products. I need a clear colour name. Dark brown, light shimmery pink. What I do not need is a name like showery rainbow or unicorn breathe. That says nothing to me. It does not help me buy an eye shadow and in all fairness, it drives me away from purchasing a product with a random name. Now, as far as pigmentation is concerned, the lighter the shade, the harder it is for me to see it on my eyelid.

Lippies

Same as above. I have no idea what I am buying

But

I can see if it looks nice on me, or at least I think I can.

If you want to hear more about this, do watch my video, where I also talk about cb students and teachers.

Thanks for stopping by.

Xx

Jo

GRWM using no foundation

Sometimes you just want a quick and easy makeup look. Something that you can apply and be ready in 5 mins. Other times it is just too hot or you are just too lazy and don’t feel like a full face of products. That is why I filmed this video and why I am sharing this post.

I am sharing with you a makeup look that requires no foundation.

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Products used

(ummmm what I remember….)

Estee Lauder Doublewear concealer. I love this concealer. It is long lasting and easy to blend into your skin. I also used my SPF which is Clinique city block. I like this sunscreen because it is a little bit tinted, but not much!

I used a Laure Mercier bronzer in 02 and my Becca Opal highlighter. I used my Benefit gold rush blush and on my lips, the Rimmel Stay Matte liquid lippie in Rose Shine.

On the eyes an eyeshadow stick (my faves are the Clinique chubby sticks) and some mascara (currently using L’oreal Paradise).

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Are you intrigued??? Check out my video

Thanks for stopping by….

xxx

Jo

C’mon makeup brands: you should be more inclusive

So I filmed a video. It explains my situation and my first world problem. Makeup. But imagine. Imagine if you could not see colours. Are you there? Is your vision black and white? Add some grey.

Now pick up the eye shadow. It is called sunset dream. Will you buy it?

That is my issue.

I shared this pic

My tweet said,

When you are colourblind, this is how you roll……

I tagged some makeup brands. Kiko Milano was the only brand that got back to me. At least they replied saying that they will take my feedback into consideration.

C’mon makeup brands. Be aware.

You are supposed to be inclusive.

I tried, but I am just one person and I need help.

You get me. You love makeup like me….

This is my story. This is my video.

Thanks for watching. I hope you can share the video. Maybe even tweet it. Tag a makeup brand.

Thanks for stopping by.

Xx

Five Friday Faves

Hi lovelies,

It is Friday (it was when I started writing this) and it is time for my 5 Friday Faves Youtube Video (and a promotional blog post which aims to get you to watch my video and maybe even subscribe to my channel coz I am trying to grow and no one really subs 😩😩). So, enough with the rambling. What are my faves?

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Body shop

My Moringa hand cream is so hydrating, lightweight and smells amazing. I 😍 it.

The card factory

I love polka dots. I love pink. I love organisation. I bought a box which is sterdy and very pretty.

Marks and Sparks

The scent of 🌹 🌹🌹 and it is my favourite. I bought the Rose 3 in 1 spray. You can use it on your body, for your room, and linen. I know that sound weird, but I like it and I πŸ’— the scent.

Primark

I bought a couple of fake flowers from Primark and my friend commented saying how nice they looked. I really like them. Great decor for shelves and stuff.

My Cane

This is a weird one, but I needed a warning cane. I now have one, and my life is much easier!Having a vision impairment is hard. Accepting that you need help is hard. Getting help is great though.

If you want to hear more about my faves, check out my channel. It would be great if you subscribed as well (#beggingforsubbies).

Anyhow, have a lovely weekend. See you in my next post and don’t forget to connect with me somehow, somewhere.

Xx

Jo

Get ready with me//partially sighted

Hi everyone,

I have been watching Youtube makeup tutorials for a while and I really enjoy them, but they are not for me. What I mean is, I see titles like:

Makeup for glasses

Or

Get ready with me in the dark

And I kinda cringe.

You see, I have registered as partially sighted (visually impaired) and have achromatopsia (rare color deficiency). I cannot relate.

When you cannot see well, makeup tutorials for people who wear glasses cannot be intricate coz well…. you cannot see. It is as simple as that!

I filmed a Get Ready With Me video and showed how I do my makeup.When I watched it I thought to myself,

Who will watch this amateur GRWM?

But then I thought,

this IS my reality.

And the reality of many, like me. So, I shared.

GRWM

My focus is on the base (foundation). At the moment, I am using the Clinique Beyond Perfection foundation (I like it). I also choose a bold (ish) lip colour (I 😍 Clinique Pop).

My eyes usually have one colour on them. I usually use an eye shadow stick because they are easier to control and harder to mess up.

I use primers and setting sprays to hold the look together.

I do not really do smokey eyes or wings or yada, yada, yada.

Oh! And if someone is around, I ask them to check my makeup. See if everything is looking OK because I cannot seeeeeee.

You see, for me, putting on my makeup in the dark is kinda like a reality, NOT a fun YouTube click bait idea idea. So, if you are in the same boat as me, check out my video and maybe give me some tips. I will be back with more Get Ready With Me videos coz I need to be more descriptive.

This is the video

Let me know what you think.

xx

Joanna

Getting an unexpected diagnosis: the one about colourblindness

There I was. Shocked. Feeling a bit robbed. Questioning myself. How could I not know? The mind plays tricks on us.

I thought I was red/ green colourblind. Turns out I don’t see any colours.

I have achromatopsia (or some sort of incomplete achromatopsia).

I am what is known as colourblind. Literally. So, I don’t just mix up my colours. I actually don’t even see them! Or do I?

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Colour is perception. Light, rays, rods and cones all join in to send a message to the brain. The brain then ‘sees’ the light/ colour. That is my simplistic explanation. A bunch of people see the same colour and give it a name…..

green

But now I know that what I thought was colour, was probably a tone or a texture, an illumination. My images are shades of grey, white, and black with an occasional dash of pink (or something….or nothing….).

How could I not know? What games was my mind playing on me?

I have all the symptoms of an achromat

Nystagmus (wobbly iris)

Myopia

Photophobic/ photosensitive (I squint a lot and wear my sunnies all day long, even when there are clouds)

How I found out

I was so excited on Saturday. I was going to try these glasses that claimed to restore colour vision. You would put on the glasses and see colours. Of course, these glasses do not work on everyone (I was warned). I wanted to try them. But first, they needed to determine what type of coulourblindness I had. I did the tests and got the diagnosis.

Achromatopsia

Very rare (2000 people in the UK).

So, what do I do with this information?

I am still the same person.

That is what everyone is telling me.

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You see colours your way.

That is what people tell me.

You still see the way you saw.

That is what everyone is telling me.

But I don’t. I don’t know what I see. I want to know what I can see. Still coming to terms with this. I have to adjust to a new normal.Β Was what I thought was pink or purple actually grey? Is everything grey? I am confused. Still confused.

Two days later.