Losing Myself: Struggles of an Overwhelmed Blogger


When I first started blogging, it was (kinda) part of a course I was doing (I am a teacher) Blogging was a way for me to reflect on my teaching ideas and so on. I started off as an educational blogger. I loved it. I loved sharing my teaching ideas, whining about teaching and communicating with other teachers.

As time went by, I wanted to include more topics and talk about my interests, so I started writing about books, my trips, then came makeup (and a whole girlie side of ELT aka English language teaching). My edublog started to become a bit too lifestyle-ish.

That’s when I decided I would start a second blog. This one. A fun blog where I would talk about my hobbies, my thoughts, boast about the things I have. My blog was an ode to my materialism coz I love shopping and talking about it.

I was a happy bunny. All good. I have actually been double-blogging for about a year and a half. Of course, now I blog more here than on my edublog. Let’s move on though, shall we? Now, as if a second blog was not enough, I decided I also wanted to start a YouTube channel and I did.I enjoy making videos. I like the interaction.


Well, I cannot keep up. I have ended up going from writing my thoughts and sharing stuff, to talking mostly about products and that’s not who I am. I mean do not get me wrong folks.

I ❤ shopping

but in order to keep up, I have followed the norm and started just posting about what everyone else publishes. Talking about what everyone else talks about. But blogging, which was my creative outlet, is not my creative outlet anymore. I have been sucked into the:

Get Views


Become Self hosted

Take instagrammable pictures



Become a brand

Get a camera/ Be more professional

So, now I have added more stuff on my To Do lists. Now, I gotta learn how to take videos/ photos, edit, import/ export stuff and yada, yada, yada.

And I stopped having fun. I feel a bit overwhelmed and not seeing the results I wanna see. Sure, my numbers have risen. I even got proper blogger mail, but I cannot keep up because I have a job and a life plus I am old. 40.

I have actually started to think that in order to be successful at blogging Youtubing, apart from being 20+, you also need to be unemployed cause, in my mind, there is no way you can be on top of your game if you work full time. Maybe I am inefficient and watch too much TV or something and cannot be as productive as others, or maybe I am comparing myself to other bloggers/ YouTubers (I feel ‘funny’ calling my self a YouTuber, but anyhoo) and

this the comparison, the do this, do that, is not making me happy.

Dunno what I am going to do, but something has to go, or I need to stop taking blogging/ YouTubing so seriously and just take it easy. But these options are not gonna cut it. I mean, I may not be a famous blogger, but I do have readers (especially my edublog) and I don’t want to ‘destroy’ what I built! So, what can I do??

We live in a time were in order to succeed, you got to do more. And then more. And that more doesn’t necessarily have to be good. It may just exist, but it’s out there and it’s more. A time where we are always setting goals, trying to hit a target. Aiming at something, but does that bring joy?

I mean, I get burnout and lack of inspo when you are a workaholic, but burnout as a freakin blogger? C’mon…. Really?? Is this what I want? Hell no!!

So, this is where I am. Trying hard to juggle a million balls. Stressing myself out for no real reason. Chasing the unchasable (is that a word).

Thanks for reading. I am usually more fun… but I do ramble.


5 thoughts on “Losing Myself: Struggles of an Overwhelmed Blogger

  1. You got blogger mail? So cool! But seriously, maybe you need to take a mini break and work out what direction you want to go in. What makes you happy? Maybe you could set yourself a schedule so it doesn’t feel like it’s getting too much. I have two blogs and a podcast now and I try to set things out on a spreadsheet so that it doesn’t feel overwhelming. Maybe you could do something similar – although on a planner because I know how much you don’t like spreadsheets! Loads of people will give you advice about the “right” way to do things on your blog etc, but the right way is your way and the way that makes you feel good about what you’ve created. Maybe making a list of what you’d like to see more of on your blog would help you to figure things out. x


    • Hey Kirsty!! Thanks. I may need a spread sheet 🙂 Or a new planner :p. Yeap. I got proper blogger mail. Post about that is almost ready :). Good luck with your new blog xxx


  2. It is definitely harder these days to stand out and gain readers and followers and I think you have to dedicate more time to it too. In the past people weren’t aware so much of seo etc and the pictures they took weren’t highly set up or edited. But every aspect of blogging involves more work now, more time and more thought put into it and I think it takes a lot more to stand out and be ‘popular’. That’s time I am not willing to spend, as I know it will take the fun out of it for me!
    Amy at Amy & More


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